DAMN IT ALL!!!!

I just know that someday, I'll just explode!!!!!!!! I'm already fucking HIGH SCHOOL!!!! If I want to go to bed at ten, I WILL!!! It doesn't even matter when I go to bed, I will still be moody and I won't be up till 6:45 (Five minutes before the bus comes). I hate getting up!!! And if want a freaking half hour shower!!! It takes a while for my hair to dry (Long hair equals pain in the butt). Why can't I do what I want!!!!! It's my freaking life! If I want my friend to give me a nice haircut, I should be allowed to ask her! But NOO, we have to spend $20 on a haircut that might not even looking right!! AHHHHH!!!!! I hate rules!!!!
Go to bed at nine, not ten. You're not allowed to let Akira cut your hair. You need to do homework before eating a snack (I concentrate better with food). No going out past six (Damn.). No listening to music while doing homework (I don't even know the point of that one). No wasting money on useless stuff. No working on your stories before homework.
The last one, pisses me off the most!! I'm a writer!! I will write no matter what!! My friend, Hitomi, took away every single notebook and paper except my worksheet. My teacher found two poems and a part of a story on the back!! Writing is in my blood!!! Just like listening to music while writing!!!
You can't mold me with rules!!! I become a rebel because of these damn rules!!! I will bend every rule I must!!
Okay, I'm done ranting for the day. Sorry for cursing. You might not see another post until next weekend since I have five hour play practice. Ja matta until then!

Gods save me from myself!!!!!!!

Why! TELL ME WHY IN HELL I'M LIKE THIS!!! This life would be so much better if I could leave and never ever come back to this hell-hole prison they call home!!
Let me start from the beginning so you can all understand why I feel so god-damn angry!!
So I went down to the coffee shop since my AP European History class had a study group (since the AP test coming up in May). It finished around an hour later, so I bought a snack and a mocha and went over to the supermarket to buy some new shoes (my normal shoes, a.k.a. boots, are dead and no shoes in my house fit me.) I had $50 to buy normal shoes and some sandals for summer. I found some great sandals but no normal everyday shoes. Walking back from the store (About two miles away from home), I met my friend (who was driving with her family and jumped out the car to run to me) who was heading to the library. Knowing how much I love books, she asked if I can go with her, her sister, and her mom. I finished reading my manga, so we headed over to the antique store (You all know how much I talk about it). Inside I saw a geisha doll that was just like Otoha-chan, only as an adult, which I saw last month with Ishymaru. I got my friend to get it down (Since she could reach the shelf and I couldn't). It costed $20 but I had enough left. I went and bought her, instantly naming her Yuki. My friends took me back home afterwords. When my mom came home, she wanted to know how much money I had left after for my normal shoes. Being the wimp that I am, I just pointed at Yuki. She almost had a freaking panic attack. What she did not know was she, now, owes me over $40 of allowances and other jobs I have done. I had a shouting match with my sister (Making my already horrible cough, just that much worse) and after a lot of screaming and then about twenty minutes of no one speaking to the other, my mom gave me $20 for the shoes I so desperately need.
Even so, I still feel like I just want to scream and cry!! The only thing saving me seems to be Yuki-san. Her eyes are almost telling me to stay calm.
I'm sorry, but this is the only way I can vent anything out when everybody is gone. Ishymaru is at a B.B.Q. somewhere and Hitomi is at a horse show. My very few fellow bloggers that either were just scanning through blogs or actually follow me, I thank you very much for dealing with me.
Blessings be to all of you.

Three Posts In one day!!!

I was looking through my playlists and found a Code Geass Video. Since I knew watching the whole thing would make me cry (again), I decided to watch just the end. I cried. Again. I always cry while watching anime....Damn it all. But the song is now calming my crying response. The one at the very end. But (Spoiler Alert) I hate how you don't know if Lelouch is alive or if he really died! Because you see C2 saying "Right Lelouch?" It bugs the crap out of me!! (End Spoiler Alert)
I'm sure this will be my last little post today....I hope... Ja Matta!!!

 

All My Pictures I've Promised to Put up

Here are the ones from my Shakespeare Class:

This was "The Box". Made during the Othello discussion.

This was a chart made the same day. You see a corner of the box on the right.

So this is the Measure For Measure, "What Happens After The Final Scene" Chart. The one called "Juno" was Lucio's Girlfriend since she didn't have a name before.

And Here is my desk:

This was right after the AYLI-A-Thon. I forgot what video I was watching on Youtube that day, But it's on one of my playlists.

Ohhh I remember this. I went with Hitomi to a restaurant for her birthday a while back and she got a free dessert. Both of us fought for the whipped cream on top of the Chocolate Lava Cake!

Usagi has cabin fever!!!!

It's Spring Break!! I should be out partying with Hitomi or Ishymaru........Yet, I'm stuck inside bored out of my freaking mind since the only thing I've been doing is watching Korean dramas like Playful Kiss and Boys Before Flowers. I'm thinking of watching Coffee Prince but I'm not sure......
Update on my Books:
I write in school so much, every single notebook has some bit from my stories. I need to organize everything and put it all in documents on my computer. If I don't lose it on my desk. I live at my desk, therefore it's a mess. I will have to put a picture of it up soon.
I'll see it I can find them. Ja matta!

Changes, changes and more changes

I love going to Shakespeare practice and all that good stuff, but please! I've already had FOUR costume changes! Long dress to short, then to my orange dress now(Which is way better, don't get me wrong, I love it) and now I need leggings Again! for my city dress. Really? Now, tomorrow, I go and get my dress sown back up after todays little problem. The dress was made for someone with a twenty inch waist. I have like a twenty four inch waist. Negative four inches space to breath! Oh well........
I did get a huge boost today though! I had my hair up for how it will be in the city and everybody was saying how pretty I look (I'm still blushing!). A bit later, on of the other actors asked if I saw the white board outside the make up room. I looked and my secret buddy (Like an anonymous gift giver or just gives you good messages) had written on the board "Usagi You're Beautiful". I swear, I felt like I was so red because I'm not used to compliments all the time. I think I'm still blushing! I took a picture and I'm going to use it as my background just so I can feel better everyday! Now I really want to know who my secret buddy is! Just so I can hug them!

I'm so late at updating this!!!!

No need to worry I am still alive!! (At least I think I am...) I haven't been on for a while in between play practice, homework (those that I actually care about doing), and being sick or visiting those who are sick. For intense my friend Hitomi, who gets sick quite often, just got over the flu and now has pneumonia. I helped her clean out the horse stalls. What else........While on the subject of Hitomi, she is teaching me showmanship with her horses. Still don't know which horse I might show but it'll be a good experience. We're (Hitomi and I) are creating a cartoon based off her horses and all our friends personalities. We have some great ideas, so while she's sick, she'll be drawing and I'll be working of some quick plots. Let's see.....Play practice!! As You Like It is going quick well and we have our sets halfway built. I FINALLY have most my costume just need the leggings. It was weird me standing on the chair getting some excess fabric cut off. So the floor length dress now being an almost mini skirt type dress. Awkward but at least I have an unique costume!
That's it that I can remember for now. Usagi out! Ja matta!

I'm about to be really philosophical and depressing

Lately I've been feeling like I don't belong anywhere.
I watched a few Studio Ghibli movies like Whisper of The Heart and Tales From the Earthsea. The songs made me think of where I am now in my life. Everyone says "Being a high schooler will be the best years of my life." Yeah right. I can't/don't do my homework, I don't behave like my older sister, can't be intelligent at the right times and nothing is in my head but song lyrics and story ideas!
A part of the song from Earthsea is this:
Open This Lonely Heart to One Who Understands,
When Will I Ever Find, a Way to Speak My Heart?
When Will I Ever Find a Place to Call My Home?
Sadness and Loneliness, a Falcon in the Sky,
When Will I Ever Find a Way to Speak My Heart,
to Someone Who Knows, What it is to be Alone?
It's like I'm alone here! I can't even speak the truth of what I think or feel. My life has been so stressful that I can't stand it any more. I break and raise my voice a tiny bit, then get f*****g yelled at!! I don't belong in this family! I'm embarrassed to invite friends over or to even go home most days. And when I do, I feel a dreadful darkness over me, like I'm scared but can't do anything about it.

eVERYTHING hAPPENS iN oNE wEEK!

So as you already know, I can't go to the E.A. concert. But on the upside, my friend Hitomi is moving down from the mountain and moving a stones throw away from my house! Only bad part is it's my dad's weekend. Upside to that bad part? My dad's in Seattle for a meeting, so I get to hang out with my step mom. Last night/this morning, I had the Like-A-Thon or the AYLI-A-Thon where everyone playing in the Shakespeare play, which is As You Like It, stays after school until 7:30 in the morning to work on their committees(e.i. Acting, costume, set design, Techies.). I only got about thirty minutes sleep since the one person I was sharing a bench with liked to steal my dinner mints so I kept waking up to check on them(I'm eating some now).
Let's see, what is left to talk about? I decided to watch Pan's Labyrinth. I had to watch it with English subtitles. Now that I'm done watching that, I'm back to my normal routine of YouTube videos with some nice songs. Crap not the creepy song! O. k.  I'm good now with some Trance. It's a cool techno band and one of their songs starts with a music box. If I find Hitomi that music box, since she loves techno, she would love me forever. That's it for now, Ciao!
P.S. NOTE: I'm doing great in welding. Arc Welding is quite easy and I'm getting some great welds here and there. I've even helped some of the guys that were working in the shop with me. I was the only girl working back in the shop that day. The two other girls don't look like they want to weld and the third girl was gone. But I got the approval of the for other guys working in the area. One I know before, he's my friends brother, the other was my talented welding partner. The other two I helped get their welds evener and much better.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE HORROR!!!

So, yesterday, my friends chats me on Facebook saying it's a no go. That means we can't go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I seriously started crying! I really wanted to go and I head everything set up. Even at school, whenever I reminded myself, I became depressed rabbit. Hitomi (The one I called Shortie) cheered my up but letting me ride her horse Pedro. That horse should be called Bull or Donkey. He is so stubborn and Hitomi said he's never acted that way before. Seems I just radiate bad luck! I did cheer up for a bit but now my butt hurts. Last time I rode was, two years, or so, ago. And the horse just walked. Pedro decided it would be funny to trot, even with me trying to stop that idiot!
Anyway, I'll see if I could maybe get another friend to come with me. But no one else like E.A.'s music, which is just crazy since SHE IS AWESOME!!
I'll keep you posted, Usagi-Chan is now going to rest her eyes. Can't wear my glasses and have my headset on at the same time. Till later!

What's the Point?

I was making some Swiss Miss hot chocolate cause I haven't had any in a long time. Once I got it, the little marshmallows were all gone! What's the point of adding little marshmallows if they're all gone by the time you drink the hot chocolate?

wOw....mY eAr Is bLeEdInG!

I just noticed my ear is kinda bleeding. Anyway, one of my friends invited me to her house and a movie today. The movie we're seeing is The Roommate...................Ya, I'm not good with horror or thriller. The only horror movies I've ever seen is The Shining (1973 or so version) and Carrie (the older version).
Now let me get phyched up for this. I have nothing else to say so..............BYE!

Why did they give me a class where i could kill myself?

So, I didn't have a 1st period class. The only elective left was Welding. WELDING!! To the most accident prone person alive! I know I'll somehow injure myself. Actually later that day, the teacher was in the anime club/art room and asked if he scared me off. I think the video of someone dyeing from a welding accident did it. Stupidly enogh, I'm still gonna take the class.
...........Owwww! I shouldn't rub my eye after I ate my Orange...It's the Chinese New Year so I brought a manderine to school only to find out my mom bought an orange.
Anyway, I'm learning a bit of Latin because I'm leaning this song from D. Gray Man. It's Lala's Lullabye. I need to make sure Ishy-kun keeps practicing the tinwhislte so he can play that song.
Anyway I have to go now. Time to USHER FOR THE PLAY!

Usagi-Chan Is Happy!!!!

And guess why! As I was driving in my dad's car, he asked about the Emilie Autumn concert. He said he wants to talk with my friend's dad who is taking us there. Well, that means I'm going! Party at USAGI'S!!!! Sorry...I've had sugar. Anyway, now I can tell my friend she can buy the tickets without lieing. AND one of Usagi's close friends (No Japanese name yet, I'll fid one for her) is moving just down the road from my house. Same bus and we'll be able to walk downtown together. I just can't wait. This is going to be the best year ever! Apart from me breaking up with my ex, but I no longer care for that. Usagi will be in a good mood all week if my new semester classes are good. And if I get dinner soon. Anyway, that's it for today, Ja matta! (I think that's how it's said. Better watch more anime!)

I love My Junior Shakespeare class!

So today, we got in a convesation about our final, a take home essay with questions about Othello. In our discussion, our "Pandora" asked a seemingly innocent question. "Is Iago gay?"
That let off a bomb! Our teacher said to put it away until later, but somehow we kept getting on the subject. He then drew a square on the board and labeled it "Iago". Ten seconds later, a door was added and then it was called a closet. (Those who get my schools sense of humor will laugh.) Our poor teacher kept trying to get on topic, but soon, the box turned into a castle someone drew on. A castle on flames. Then a different student drew the box, exploding.
Finally, ten minutes before class ended. We asked our "Pandora" to FINALLY open the box.
And this is why I love Junior Shakespeare. We have so much fun. I even took a picture of the board, and as soon as I can, I'll put it up here.