I'm about to be really philosophical and depressing

Lately I've been feeling like I don't belong anywhere.
I watched a few Studio Ghibli movies like Whisper of The Heart and Tales From the Earthsea. The songs made me think of where I am now in my life. Everyone says "Being a high schooler will be the best years of my life." Yeah right. I can't/don't do my homework, I don't behave like my older sister, can't be intelligent at the right times and nothing is in my head but song lyrics and story ideas!
A part of the song from Earthsea is this:
Open This Lonely Heart to One Who Understands,
When Will I Ever Find, a Way to Speak My Heart?
When Will I Ever Find a Place to Call My Home?
Sadness and Loneliness, a Falcon in the Sky,
When Will I Ever Find a Way to Speak My Heart,
to Someone Who Knows, What it is to be Alone?
It's like I'm alone here! I can't even speak the truth of what I think or feel. My life has been so stressful that I can't stand it any more. I break and raise my voice a tiny bit, then get f*****g yelled at!! I don't belong in this family! I'm embarrassed to invite friends over or to even go home most days. And when I do, I feel a dreadful darkness over me, like I'm scared but can't do anything about it.

eVERYTHING hAPPENS iN oNE wEEK!

So as you already know, I can't go to the E.A. concert. But on the upside, my friend Hitomi is moving down from the mountain and moving a stones throw away from my house! Only bad part is it's my dad's weekend. Upside to that bad part? My dad's in Seattle for a meeting, so I get to hang out with my step mom. Last night/this morning, I had the Like-A-Thon or the AYLI-A-Thon where everyone playing in the Shakespeare play, which is As You Like It, stays after school until 7:30 in the morning to work on their committees(e.i. Acting, costume, set design, Techies.). I only got about thirty minutes sleep since the one person I was sharing a bench with liked to steal my dinner mints so I kept waking up to check on them(I'm eating some now).
Let's see, what is left to talk about? I decided to watch Pan's Labyrinth. I had to watch it with English subtitles. Now that I'm done watching that, I'm back to my normal routine of YouTube videos with some nice songs. Crap not the creepy song! O. k.  I'm good now with some Trance. It's a cool techno band and one of their songs starts with a music box. If I find Hitomi that music box, since she loves techno, she would love me forever. That's it for now, Ciao!
P.S. NOTE: I'm doing great in welding. Arc Welding is quite easy and I'm getting some great welds here and there. I've even helped some of the guys that were working in the shop with me. I was the only girl working back in the shop that day. The two other girls don't look like they want to weld and the third girl was gone. But I got the approval of the for other guys working in the area. One I know before, he's my friends brother, the other was my talented welding partner. The other two I helped get their welds evener and much better.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE HORROR!!!

So, yesterday, my friends chats me on Facebook saying it's a no go. That means we can't go to the Emilie Autumn concert! I seriously started crying! I really wanted to go and I head everything set up. Even at school, whenever I reminded myself, I became depressed rabbit. Hitomi (The one I called Shortie) cheered my up but letting me ride her horse Pedro. That horse should be called Bull or Donkey. He is so stubborn and Hitomi said he's never acted that way before. Seems I just radiate bad luck! I did cheer up for a bit but now my butt hurts. Last time I rode was, two years, or so, ago. And the horse just walked. Pedro decided it would be funny to trot, even with me trying to stop that idiot!
Anyway, I'll see if I could maybe get another friend to come with me. But no one else like E.A.'s music, which is just crazy since SHE IS AWESOME!!
I'll keep you posted, Usagi-Chan is now going to rest her eyes. Can't wear my glasses and have my headset on at the same time. Till later!

What's the Point?

I was making some Swiss Miss hot chocolate cause I haven't had any in a long time. Once I got it, the little marshmallows were all gone! What's the point of adding little marshmallows if they're all gone by the time you drink the hot chocolate?

wOw....mY eAr Is bLeEdInG!

I just noticed my ear is kinda bleeding. Anyway, one of my friends invited me to her house and a movie today. The movie we're seeing is The Roommate...................Ya, I'm not good with horror or thriller. The only horror movies I've ever seen is The Shining (1973 or so version) and Carrie (the older version).
Now let me get phyched up for this. I have nothing else to say so..............BYE!

Why did they give me a class where i could kill myself?

So, I didn't have a 1st period class. The only elective left was Welding. WELDING!! To the most accident prone person alive! I know I'll somehow injure myself. Actually later that day, the teacher was in the anime club/art room and asked if he scared me off. I think the video of someone dyeing from a welding accident did it. Stupidly enogh, I'm still gonna take the class.
...........Owwww! I shouldn't rub my eye after I ate my Orange...It's the Chinese New Year so I brought a manderine to school only to find out my mom bought an orange.
Anyway, I'm learning a bit of Latin because I'm leaning this song from D. Gray Man. It's Lala's Lullabye. I need to make sure Ishy-kun keeps practicing the tinwhislte so he can play that song.
Anyway I have to go now. Time to USHER FOR THE PLAY!